I soaked my period undies in a big glass vase, I had them in the laundry, I quickly put it the cupboard as we were having a house inspection, can you imagine the look of the real estates face seeing my undies in a vase full of blood, I didn’t know how it sit so I hid.
Later that day I went into the backyard I poured my blood and water into a glass bowl, and I winged this ritual. I had no literal idea what I was doing but I followed my womb, my inner compass, my intuition. I also was gifted a ceramic coin by a dear sister Doelle, I remember I received and ordered from her way back in the first months of starting Tutti, I was in a little shack in Jan Juc on the coast of Victoria, I wrote to her I love your name ! And we have been friends ever since.
I rubbed my moon oil on my womb and breast and lay on pink cloth besides the pink flowers and I placed the coin on my belly, I was advised by Doelle on a hand written note that this coin takes away my trauma and holds me through it, as the coin rose and fell with my breath, I smelt the scent of the moon oil and my tears rolled into my hair. Each honouring I take for myself, I always feel like many layers of, “not me” ideas and pressures peel away. I then start hearing my voice more and more, my body feels more and more like my own, less tension more flow, and then I pour my blood over the flowers. And they thank me and I thank them, because they held me all so much through the years living here in this beautiful town I miss dearly, witnessing all the unravelling.
Until the next home I (and my partner, any doggies ) call in …
Thank you Mother Earth our creator
Big Love Lauren (Founder of Tutti)